xburlesquex (xburlesquex) wrote,
xburlesquex
xburlesquex

It hurts.

So my boyfriend is going out of town to record with some people in San Diego with his band Albino fly.

So of course convienantly I have this dream of him cheating on me last night. It was so realistic and it really had me upset. So now I am freaking out, not sure how to handle him being gone for 2 weeks. Last time he left was for 4 days and I was trippin. I was so miserable.

Also we dont have the healthiest relationship, so that its bothing me to. There is lots of not good things in this relationship and I am starting to get worried. If I loose him I will be destroyed and I dont think I can go through that. I hate love. If I loose him, that will be it for me. I will give up. I have been hurt so much, and I am sick of failing at things.

I just dont know what I am doing so damn wrong. Why every relationship is always so akward for me. What sets me apart from other girls! I dont get it!
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