So of course convienantly I have this dream of him cheating on me last night. It was so realistic and it really had me upset. So now I am freaking out, not sure how to handle him being gone for 2 weeks. Last time he left was for 4 days and I was trippin. I was so miserable.
Also we dont have the healthiest relationship, so that its bothing me to. There is lots of not good things in this relationship and I am starting to get worried. If I loose him I will be destroyed and I dont think I can go through that. I hate love. If I loose him, that will be it for me. I will give up. I have been hurt so much, and I am sick of failing at things.
I just dont know what I am doing so damn wrong. Why every relationship is always so akward for me. What sets me apart from other girls! I dont get it!